Here I am again against the wall,
But I’ve got peace in my heart
In spite of it all.
My confidence is in the Lord and
I’ve seen the waters part before
And I’m about to find an open door
In answer to my call.
God’s gonna make a way, He always does;
God’s gonna make a way for those He loves.
He’ll come through for you if you ask Him to
All you gotta do is trust.
God’s gonna make a way, He always does.
It’s a problem like I’ve never faced before,
But it’s alright, my faith is in the Lord.
And I recall the many times when He
Came and calmed the raging seas for me
And He’ll do once again
Cause I believe all His best is yet to be
- song by Gordon Jensen
Those are the lyrics to one of my favourite Gordon Jensen songs. I had not heard it in years but I am moving and, with the packing, I found my “tape” and played it. I kept playing it all last weekend and this song kept going through my mind all day Monday at work. This song was SO meaningful to me when I was a young single mom raising two children and trying to make ends meet. There were times that I got my pay, put my offering aside, paid my bills and had $20.00 left over for food and gas to get me to work for the next two weeks. Now I know that it was back in the late seventies/early eighties but it still was not much money. Yet, my Father ALWAYS provided. There were many times when I would look at the few dollars and say to Him “well, it is going to be fun watching how you do it this time!” I never doubted He would provide. He used those days to build my baby faith (I had only been saved for 5-6 years at that time, and my husband had died leaving me with a barely 5 and 3 year old.) Looking back I would not exchange a thing if it meant losing what I learned about my God! I believe God used that song, and others, to keep my eyes on my Him and trust Him for everything – and it was a constant reminder to me that God WILL make a way. I did not know much scripture back then; and did not have much time to learn it. It never fails to amaze me how God will meet us where we are at and use whatever He wants to draw us to Him.
This song continued to play in my mind and get me through that Monday! Isn’t it amazing how our Father prepares us?
My computer modem got fried in the lightening storm on the Sunday before and my internet service was down. Since I need the internet to work from home that meant I had to go into my office in the city. I had five hours of sleep and left for work at 6:30 Monday morning. It was a very busy day and I barely made it to my 93-year old mom’s retirement home to have our weekly dinner. I then dashed away at 7:00 to attend my bible study for 7:15 – only to find out they had lost my cell phone number and could not call to tell me it was cancelled. That was okay...that meant I now had time to be at the cable store before it closed at 9:00 p.m. I got the new modem then came home and disentangled my cords and wires and low and behold it worked. Amazing!! I was so exhausted and tired that I kept going simply because I had promised myself a treat - an ice cream bar - once I was done and had the computer up and running (if I had enough points left from Weight Watchers for the ice cream). Well, the computer was up and running and I had enough points so I headed for the freezer before I went to bed. It was now after 9:00 p.m. and I need to get up at 4:30 to go into the office again. That was when I discovered a pool of mush – including thawed ice cream and fruit juice bars. The fridge/freezer had died! Fortunately the meat was in the middle and still quite cool so I cooked it up. The sticky juice bars leaked onto the floor so it got washed. I guess I needed to empty my fridge and clean it anyway before I move in a couple of weeks! It was after midnight before I got to bed and all the while Gordon Jensen was playing. I felt God loving me like crazy through the whole time! I felt His presence so strongly and His peace was totally amazing.
Every time something happened that day I found myself smiling, then giggling - then finally laughing right out load when I discovered the dead fridge. It was nostalgic remembering how God kept and provided for me back those 28 years ago; and to review how He has deepened our relationship over the years. I no longer rely on Gordon Jensen;s songs – today I have God’s word hidden in me and it gives me strength and direction. But, I must admit, it was an interesting journey with Jesus that Monday! God IS going to make a way – He ALWAYS does if we ask Him – and trust His provision. What He provides is not always what we want but definitely what we need. As I write this I am praising Him for His goodness to me. He loves it when we trust Him – and I love trusting Him! He is so trustworthy and able to do exceeding abundantly more than we can ask, dream or hope. (Eph 3:20)
I pray that you will recognize His precious fingerprints all over your life today and acknowledge Him for it – giving Him praise and all the glory – for He is so worthy of it. And remember – God IS good – ALL the time!
